The world is a very funny place.
Yeah, no explanation necessary as to which one I am, right?
I never claim that I get it all. That I know what ‘the big picture’ is. Because if there is anything I’ve learned in the past few years, it is that Life is a Journey (haha…get it?) and NOT a destination.
Life isn’t about hitting certain goals and then being DONE. It isn’t about reaching certain milestones by a certain age. You must always be pushing toward something NEW. Something that CHALLENGES you. As I tell my dance students in class…we are NEVER done learning!
And I think that I still come to grips with these lessons daily. Especially the one about reaching certain milestones by a certain age. It is often hard to be a 30 year old, single woman, resettling back in a city….building my career as a dance instructor, studio director, etc. And NOT having a significant other. NOT owning my own home. NOT having kids. NOT having all that I see most of my other friends my age having.
Sometimes it makes me feel like my priorities are out of line. That there is something WRONG with me for NOT having all those things. Or even being on the path to those things. That I will NEVER have those things.
But then I stop and think about all I DO have.
I have a wonderful family who I get to see every week because we live in the same city! I have an amazing job/career that allows me to mold young minds and create beautiful dancers/people! I have beautiful friends who support me from far and wide. Virtually and In Person. I have a crazy/doofy dog who brings me such joy (and drives me crazy).
I have my health. After fighting tooth and nail for it after sitting at a desk for 5 years.
I know its not Tuesday. But you catch my drift.
And so many other things that it would take too long to write about.
And while I may not have found the person I’ll spend the rest of my life with just yet. I know he’s out there. And that my journey will lead me to him. That there are lessons I’ve had to learn about myself…and the world…before I’m ready for that. That I’m still learning how to love myself, and ALL my imperfections…before anyone else will love them.
I need to take MY path. Do things my OWN way. On my OWN terms. And then one day I will get where I need to be.
So to all of you that have felt these things too. Keep your head up. March to the beat of your own drum. Hang upside down every now and then. Act like a kid. Have faith in YOURSELF. Because at the end of the day that is what matters most. That YOU believe in YOU.